tell me.

its v v v v v v v v v depressing.

and all i need is someone to tell that everything will be okay..

I have feelings, baby.

I have feelings too.

I'm trying hard, to just make you whole again.
Sometimes, I wonder if you'll ask me if I'm alright ? How am I feeling ?

Do you even care what I feel ?
But nevertheless, I still continue to love you like how I always do.

Bbylove, I have feelings too. Sometime, its what you do that makes me feel sad.
I love you.

Take care.

At the very moment, you need your time and space. I know I had to give way to your wants. After your last message, I feel empty and alone. I'm sure you had enough of me, and you said yourself. You wanted this year for us to be the best. I'm sorry because I just cannot do that anymore right ? The problem is not my problem alone, its yours too. You can't just runaway from it. I'm staying strong right here. I'll be waiting for your return. Must you do this ? I've told you countless of times, I hold responsibility of what's become of you. Even if you're not accepting this, just know that. I still will hold responsibility over you. Yes, I have sinned a lot behind your back. I'm sorry.

And I know, you're still a part of me. I know you feel like you can't hold on. Don't let the tension snap. Nevertheless, thanks for all you've done. Bye Leena.

Lets play with numbers

Number for today is 3 and 5.

Why 3 and 5 ? Today is my 3 years and 5 months monthsary.

Its not always that I blew things up on this kind of date. But it happens that you always have to bottle up and keep things from me. Cause you know what's gonna happen. But you never thought, that I might have not been like how I used to. You still keep things from me, no matter the countless times I admit stuffs to you. Though I know it hurts. You say that you didn't react like me, but you get frustrated deep inside. If I have no time, why would I go to the library to read up on stuffs. I could have used that time to teach you maths. But no, I didn't get the privilege to do that. Instead he's just a friend and your mom pays to teach you. Am I no different, I'm not about the pay. I feel so pathetic.

You kept this from me...

3: the number of times we've broken our relationship.

the number of times I caught you with 3 guys who liked you at seperate ocassions.

the number of times I blew my top because of the situations you put me into.

when you rush at the eleventh minute, you walk with no dignity.

because of your rush, your desperate need for something tends to put me out of your head.

no matter how many times you tell me that I've never left your head.

you're just that kid who is just confused.

and I'm just that kid who cannot control the emotions.

when the truth surface, you stoned. you walk away. where is your responsibility, love ?

where is your crystal pride and dignity that you once had ?

5: the number of years we've been friends.

yet you cannot understand me.

I am very disappointed. Just keep on keeping stuffs away from me.

ps: happy 3 year 5 months

Fading Trust

To my fellow hometown mates

Truth and Lies collide.

When trust seems to fade. Faceless and feeling busted up inside.

You've been searching and crying out what you aren't able to find.

Will you be destroyed by all your doubts ?

If your bonding is strong, you won't let them pull you or take you in.

While you were busy, haven't you noticed that you're being watched ?

The truth will become your fear.

From the truth, will you let the truth swallow up your life ?

Will you stay the same or will you stay and fight ?

Wrong or right, you guys don't need to hide.

I'm calling out to those who have doubts.

The fire burns dimly now. Never this low.

Will you let the fire burn stronger ?

If so spout all your doubts into it.

You decide.

Fated Circle

Bonds are sometime strengthen or broken. It is yet up to every individual in the circle to decide on the bonds. Some chose to break the bond, and some is the opposite.

The past is what that moulds you. The past is what you should learn and prevent it from happening. That is why, they don't need you to reinvent the wheel but only to improve on it.

Accept it or not, take it or leave. You decide, because after all.. You'll be the one tasting it.

I've said this to some. ' my reality is mine alone, i choose how to walk it '

You have companions, friends etc for a reason. Think about it.

I've looked back on myself, disgusted sometimes. But if the decision I make is really gonna be harsh, be it.

I won't tell you what I'm thinking. Read up on this, tell me the Keywords I'm thinking off. Thank you.

Lone Wolf

its funny how people try to joke on you when you're in deep thought.

have life not fuck your ass bad enough ?

reckless you are. empty promises you make. a big show off you are.

but nevertheless, don't worry. you're still my friend.

face it, that's the way i see you now.

a person labelled me a wolf. i thank you. you searched my backgrounds, you heard my tales.

for now, there's 3 people excluding my family that moulded me. That is Farah, Ismail & Kamsani.

i don't give a damn to who thinks about these.

my reality is mine alone.