In need.

I need to be accompanied. Guess, I won't be having them anymore. Only God knows how I feel at this point of time. So pathetic, I can't even do anything to meet up with her. Maybe its me that's different, oh how I wish to be immune to emotions. You said "i don't want to touch the past." but nothing changed since that sentence. You remained silent, I should do too.

I know what I got that's why I'm not losing it again. But, it seems like I don't really matter to you. It seems to be fading and so is our communication. Sometimes, I'm angry at you. Why ? You refuse to take orders. I shan't elaborate it further. The way I look at things, it seems like you try so hard on fairness. You said you didn't want to touch the past, but when you put Fairness inside the matters. It appears that you're touching the past. Always pinning me down, putting me into silent. Sometimes, when I already put my ego aside, you're still retaining it. I'm just stating what I personally feel.

think i'll go to school now, ive got training. despite being sick atleast im doing something to keep me distracted from the current situation. till then, i hope you'd reply my messages.

Sorry, but I just feel like putting up this lyric.

The lyrics are somehow very meaningful to me, it kinda reflects the shits I've been through.

When theres a rub

We can talk for a while

But I have sweet nothings to say

You don't want me anyway

You don't want me anyway

So why?

Why should I stay?

So goodbye to you and your life

Your new best friends

Your confidence

And I'll be here when you get home

Sitting half way

Away from no where

Praying for our lips to touch

Holding myself,

For a second

Just to catch a smile

On this line.

Blur me in every aspect

Right now, I don't know how to feel.

I just feel like staring into space. That'll be so emotionless.

How I wish to not react to anything. Just plainly emotionless.

Heartaches, why now ?

...I FEEL USED

I'm old and worn out.

I feel used.

I'm no longer sweet. There's no thrill to me already.

I'm no longer soft.

Cause I ain't those sweettalkermotherfuckers .

He's soft and sweet

...just like me when you first know me

Its better to be burnt away than to fade away.