Friday, September 4, 2009

PUASA LA OI~!

Nabei. Puasa la peepol. Hahahah !
Now no more school, like so boring. Now no more stress like damn boring. How ? Pantat laa.
I love the day I feel today. I just love it.
Bro L, stay strong. Don't let all the motherbitches know about your situation.

KNN, go puasa la. now like 3 days never puasa. Hahaha~ cb you zai. Eh eh, sorry random post. Damn bored uh !
Eh, muthafucka. I always wanted to say that. Hahaha !

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

This post goes out to my bloods that have been with me for 13 years. I love them alot. They've been part of my life for so long. I love you Ismail & Kamsani. For your guys' love and concern. I'm not gay, just that I love them for being there for me.

To Ismail, I just wanna say a big Thank You to you. You've been there when shit happens. Through thick and thin, you'll always be my brother I look up for whenever I go. You have the warmest heart I ever get to know. Your heart so pure and funny, I just can't leave you alone. This picture I have for you is most memorable for me. Because its taken during my birthday. You were there to witness me grow a year older. You were there Mail. You're always there. No matter how down I feel, your sleek MJ moves never fail to put a smile on my face. Primary 1 to 6. Sec 1 to 5. And now in poly. You've watched me grow. You've been the biggest thing that have ever happened in me. Don't leave me, bro.
To Kamsani, you too have been the one watching me grow. You're always my brother no matter which direction I head to. Though your heart is warm in our brotherhood. Chilly attitude and cold words never fail to knock sense into me. You've never fail to teach me. You were there for me all the time during our O' levels. You always remind me of how strong we were in the past. You'll never fail to remind me of what I've lost whenever I lose my mood. You're just another brother I cannot lose. Thanks kam, you means alot to me. Your silly sarcastic acts never left my mind whenever I'm tired of doing my project works. You've always been my gauging meter ;D. Kam, 13 years together. Now in a band together. What's next kam ? Thanks bro. I love you just like I love Mail.

This picture. Taken during my brithday. I love you guys. We're always there for each other. Just like a puzzle, losing a piece of anyone of you will just make the picture incomplete. We always get together no matter the toughness we face. Be it mentally or physically, think back. Each one of us were there for each other. Sorry guys if I ever let you guys down. This is no significant move I'm gonna make, but its just for me to remember and for you guys to remember what we've done for each other. I now dedicate this song for you.

by Alter Bridge- Open Your Eyes

Looking back I clearly see,
What it is that's killing me.

Through the eyes of one I know,
I see a vision once let go,
I had it all.

Constantly it burdens me,
Hard to trust and can't believe.

Lost the faith and lost the love,
When the day is done.

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
On and on we stand alone
Until our day has come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one

I love the way I feel today,
But how I know the sun will fade.
Darker days seem to be,
What will always live in me,
But still I run.

It's hard to walk this path alone,
Hard to know which way to go,
Will I ever save this day,
Will it ever change.

Will they open their eyes,
And realize we are one.
On and on we stand alone,
Until our day has come,
Will they open their eyes,
And realize we are one.

Still today we carry on,
I know our day will come,

When they open their eyes,
And realize we are one.
Will they open their eyes,
And realize we are one.



Friday, August 7, 2009

Doubted

The last thing I ever want to get dishearted from you is getting doubted by you.
You effing doubted me about getting tired of your problems. Or is it just a cover line that you're tired of me ?
I feel bad already that I couldn't make my way down to your school. I wanted to spend time with you but then school. I feel so down.
What am I ? after 3 long years. 3 years.. Now you say I'm tired.
WOW ! then go on doubting everything I did for you. I'll play your game, Love.

Friday, June 26, 2009

In need.

I need to be accompanied. Guess, I won't be having them anymore. Only God knows how I feel at this point of time. So pathetic, I can't even do anything to meet up with her. Maybe its me that's different, oh how I wish to be immune to emotions. You said "i don't want to touch the past." but nothing changed since that sentence. You remained silent, I should do too.
I know what I got that's why I'm not losing it again. But, it seems like I don't really matter to you. It seems to be fading and so is our communication. Sometimes, I'm angry at you. Why ? You refuse to take orders. I shan't elaborate it further. The way I look at things, it seems like you try so hard on fairness. You said you didn't want to touch the past, but when you put Fairness inside the matters. It appears that you're touching the past. Always pinning me down, putting me into silent. Sometimes, when I already put my ego aside, you're still retaining it. I'm just stating what I personally feel.

think i'll go to school now, ive got training. despite being sick atleast im doing something to keep me distracted from the current situation. till then, i hope you'd reply my messages.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Sorry, but I just feel like putting up this lyric.
The lyrics are somehow very meaningful to me, it kinda reflects the shits I've been through.

When theres a rub
We can talk for a while
But I have sweet nothings to say
You don't want me anyway
You don't want me anyway
So why?
Why should I stay?

So goodbye to you and your life
Your new best friends
Your confidence
And I'll be here when you get home

Sitting half way
Away from no where
Praying for our lips to touch
Holding myself,
For a second
Just to catch a smile
On this line.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Blur me in every aspect



Right now, I don't know how to feel.
I just feel like staring into space. That'll be so emotionless.
How I wish to not react to anything. Just plainly emotionless.
Heartaches, why now ?


...I FEEL USED

Monday, June 8, 2009

I'm old and worn out.



I feel used.
I'm no longer sweet. There's no thrill to me already.
I'm no longer soft.


Cause I ain't those sweettalkermotherfuckers .
He's soft and sweet
...just like me when you first know me