In need.

I need to be accompanied. Guess, I won't be having them anymore. Only God knows how I feel at this point of time. So pathetic, I can't even do anything to meet up with her. Maybe its me that's different, oh how I wish to be immune to emotions. You said "i don't want to touch the past." but nothing changed since that sentence. You remained silent, I should do too.

I know what I got that's why I'm not losing it again. But, it seems like I don't really matter to you. It seems to be fading and so is our communication. Sometimes, I'm angry at you. Why ? You refuse to take orders. I shan't elaborate it further. The way I look at things, it seems like you try so hard on fairness. You said you didn't want to touch the past, but when you put Fairness inside the matters. It appears that you're touching the past. Always pinning me down, putting me into silent. Sometimes, when I already put my ego aside, you're still retaining it. I'm just stating what I personally feel.

think i'll go to school now, ive got training. despite being sick atleast im doing something to keep me distracted from the current situation. till then, i hope you'd reply my messages.

Sorry, but I just feel like putting up this lyric.

The lyrics are somehow very meaningful to me, it kinda reflects the shits I've been through.

When theres a rub

We can talk for a while

But I have sweet nothings to say

You don't want me anyway

You don't want me anyway

So why?

Why should I stay?

So goodbye to you and your life

Your new best friends

Your confidence

And I'll be here when you get home

Sitting half way

Away from no where

Praying for our lips to touch

Holding myself,

For a second

Just to catch a smile

On this line.

Blur me in every aspect

Right now, I don't know how to feel.

I just feel like staring into space. That'll be so emotionless.

How I wish to not react to anything. Just plainly emotionless.

Heartaches, why now ?

...I FEEL USED

I'm old and worn out.

I feel used.

I'm no longer sweet. There's no thrill to me already.

I'm no longer soft.

Cause I ain't those sweettalkermotherfuckers .

He's soft and sweet

...just like me when you first know me

Its better to be burnt away than to fade away.

3 years

This post goes to my lovely girlfriend Leena.

Of all pictures we took together, I chose this because its like a memorable one to me. Its rare of us to spend our time at the beach together. The pictures here really means a lot to me. Okay love, its our 3 years of being together ! Cheers to that ! Ultimately, how can I throw away memories we had throughout these years. It has indeed became a part of me. I'm sorry for the unpleasant things that happened recently and in the past. I'm so grateful to have someone like you. Watching over me though we're miles apart. You make me, me (: I know we should be spending our time for this very moment but for some constraints, we have to celebrate it in the near future. I hope you understand what's happening here. 3 years have never been an easy ride for us. To me, our relationship is like a boat. You can't move the boat alone, you need another party. And that party is me (: I feel so grateful to you, countless of hugs and kisses. I yearn for it every time we meet up. I've learned so much from you. One of the things you thought me was patience. I'll never forget that one.

" Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time
I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?
Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time
I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?
When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
Baby I'm here
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time " The Used- Smother Me

Love, I wanna wish you a very happy 3 years of being together and I'm still counting on it. I love you so much ! Stay by my side (: Love you truckloads ! Mmmwaahs ! Hugs and Kisses love.

Sincere

Exhausted. I am but I never grow tired of you, Farah. I love you loads. I wish you're here with me. I wanna take loads of pictures with you. Sincere pictures cause I take you with my heart and so does the camera. Get well soon love. I love you truckloads (: