In need.

I need to be accompanied. Guess, I won't be having them anymore. Only God knows how I feel at this point of time. So pathetic, I can't even do anything to meet up with her. Maybe its me that's different, oh how I wish to be immune to emotions. You said "i don't want to touch the past." but nothing changed since that sentence. You remained silent, I should do too.

I know what I got that's why I'm not losing it again. But, it seems like I don't really matter to you. It seems to be fading and so is our communication. Sometimes, I'm angry at you. Why ? You refuse to take orders. I shan't elaborate it further. The way I look at things, it seems like you try so hard on fairness. You said you didn't want to touch the past, but when you put Fairness inside the matters. It appears that you're touching the past. Always pinning me down, putting me into silent. Sometimes, when I already put my ego aside, you're still retaining it. I'm just stating what I personally feel.

think i'll go to school now, ive got training. despite being sick atleast im doing something to keep me distracted from the current situation. till then, i hope you'd reply my messages.